Number One: Make more things from scratch. Since the New Year I have made a batch of lactation cookies, a batch of chocolate chip cookies (so good-you can find the recipe here), a batch of homemade cheez itz (which needs some tweaking so i'll post the recipe later), and mac and cheese all from scratch. I have a whole notebook full of more recipes I want to try I just wore myself and our dishwasher out, doing all the dirty dishes! Who knew cooking and baking would be so messy!
Number Two: Organize my home. This is a goal that I have been striving for since I went through my nesting frenzy when I was just weeks away from giving birth to my beautiful baby girl. I turned into that robot form the Jetson's and started cleaning and organizing everything with a giant 8 pound baby bouncing around in my tummy. I drove Michael mad, and he got on my last nerve, (it was not pleasant). I could not have foreseen that I would need a C-Section, but thankfully everything was organized and in its place, for the most part, so I didn't have to stress about cleaning when I got home. I was grateful since I could barely walk around our apartment, much less be cleaning and bending down to pick up clothes. Once I felt better, I loved having people come over and not having to run around the apartment like a chicken with her head cut off, stressing out trying to hide all the dirty laundry and dishes. Since returning to work it's a lot heftier task, but I still want to reach it. This year my pantry will be "pin-worthy".
Number Three: Complete the projects I start. I don't know about you, but I hate finishing things. I get so excited about how great they are turning out, and then fear if I keep working on them they will fall apart. I have countless "pieces" of projects and art pieces I started and never finished. That's why I love making art with Michael because I love to start projects and usually I can convince him to finish them for me. I just bat my eyelashes and sing sweet praises of how much better he is at it than I am. Love you babe ;). Needless to say if I went through everything and finished all my projects I would have a much more organized home, helping me finish number two on my list.
Number Four: Blog more. Pretty simple. It's been about a month from my last post, way off from my original goal of at least a post a week. Can we just blame it on the holidays and start over? Starting now I will hopefully squeeze some more posts into my schedule!
Number Five: Love my job. Yuck! Who loves their job? Well, I have been wanting this for a while now, and I know it will ultimately lead to more happiness in my life. The bible tells us to be content in all situations and circumstances. So my goal is to enjoy my job whether or not it is my dream job, and then, ultimately my goal is to attain my dream job.
Number Six: Love people more. Yikes, this one probably makes me seem like a cold person. I love people, but I feel like sometimes when it's too hard or too messy it's easy to say, "well I love people 99.9% of the time....". It brings me back to phrase that has always resonated with me, "hurting people hurt people". It helps you to see that the people you are so eager to avoid are just broken and desperate for love and affection. So my goal this year is to love people more and love more people, no matter how hard it seems or how much easier it would be to judge them or just pretend it's not my job to love on these people. Jesus calls us to love one another with a fierce love, so who am I to say Jesus can settle with me loving the majority of everyone. If I were to do that, it would be as if Jesus died on the cross for just the majority of everyone's sins, and left me hanging out with the 1% not redeemed?
Now I know my list isn't perfect. I didn't stick to the whole ONE resolution thing (I've got a lot of things to work on y'all). I didn't make a neat 'Top Ten Resolutions'. These just happen to be the things on my heart. There isn't one, and there aren't ten. Just six that I can call to mind right now.
I would love to hear what all of your resolutions are! Leave comments below.
This year I'm not going to starve myself to lose weight, I'm not going to exhaust myself at the gym, and I'm not going to vow to change my appearance in anyway. Not to say boo on you, to any of you who are working on yourselves, I just have tried and failed miserably when I set these kind of goals. So, this year I am only focusing on making myself a little happier.
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This morning was disastrous, Jolene decided she was a night owl last night and wouldn’t shut her eyes for longer than a minute, so needless to say I was exhausted. Then I began to clumsily drop everything, I forgot to run the dishwasher, which has my pump parts and the clean bottles I need to pump into, I felt sick from exhaustion, Jolene needed four diaper changes, and my lunch wasn’t ready. Then there was the daily distraction that leads to me being late out the door every morning, my deep desire to stay home with my daughter. As I was eating my breakfast she was giggling her little socks off, and talking away, which sounded like little baby wolf howls, and smiling at everything I did. I wanted to live the rest of my life in this moment.
Before Michael and I had Jolene, we went out, a lot. Back then, when we were trying to “save” money, we would limit ourselves to going to the movies once a weekend, hilarious, right? It’s amazing to me now to think that we had to stop ourselves from going to the movies multiple times during the week and weekend. Sometimes, we would go to the movies to see bad movies just to get out of the house and eat popcorn. Now, I think we’ve gone to the movies maybe 3 times since she was born, she’ll be 3 months old December 5, so that almost averages out to once a month. It’s unbelievable how much a tiny human can shape your day to day activities.
"The natural state of motherhood is unselfishness. When you become a mother, you are no longer the center of your own universe. You relinquish that position to your children."
Jessica Lange |